A Hopeful Tomorrow

Monday, April 5, 2010

Mummy left us on 31st March, 2010 at 3.30pm.

I was there as she took her last breath. Or rather, I believe she was waiting for us to be there. She said once before that her only regret was that she wasn't there when her mum passed away. It was unbelievable. Her pulse was originally at 120+, but we lowered it to 90+, and then to 70+. 15 mins later, the sensor was unable to sense her pulse. When the nurses finally found it, her pulse was at 40+ and her oxygen level was rapidly dropping. We knew nothing could be done. It was a difficult time. Her siblings were mostly there. Except 2 who didn't know, and 1 who left after seeing her during lunch. My aunt and cousin rushed down upon hearing the news. Amah was shocked and nearly fainted, according to Eleanor.

My mum was the best mum anyone could ever ask for. She was kind and generous, loving and caring, polite and sweet. She wasn't petty or anything like that. She knew us so well, she knew what we liked and what we hated. She had fought a good fight, perhaps the best, for 11 months. It would be selfish of us not to let her go, after all the pain and suffering she had gone through.

I love you, Mummy.

love that bear <3

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Went to see mum on Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon, & Tues. On Fri, she cried. She told my dad that the doctor said that if her fever doesnt go off, she will only haf 3 months left to live. She said that if anything happened to her, life had to go on. What she said made me cry. Had to go to the toilet. Didnt wanna upset her further. Later on, a doctor came in and said that what she had might not be pneumonia. Might be tuberculosis. Also dunno whether I shld be happy or sad. On the other days, she seemed happier. Maybe because she was glad that my sis and I were visiting her despite our heavy school workload, cuz usually we only see her once a wk. On Tues when we went there, they were changing her dressing. Only I went in, cuz my dad and my sis were pretty much freaked out by the sight of the wound. Although she claimed that it didnt hurt, can tell that she was in very much pain, just didnt wanna say. She was holding my hand and occasionally squeezed it, and she was gripping the handle at the side of her bed really tightly. She also closed her eyes when the nurses were cleaning her wound. Made me feel really sad and helpless. May God's grace fall upon her, bless her and continue to put his healing hands on her.

love that bear <3

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Dad said that mum's pneumonia is healing well. Glad to hear that. Her wound too. But Just found out that it'll nvr close unless they stitch it up. So assuming that there are no more complications, my estimation would be that she will be able to have the transplant probably end Feb or start of March.

On the other hand, my grandpa has just been diagnosed with prostrate cancer, which is the cancer of the prostrate gland. Im guessing its in the last two stages or maybe even the terminal stage because my dad says that he only has a few months left to live.... HOpe that he gets to accept Jesus as his Christ and Saviour before he passes away...

love that bear <3

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Saw mummy a couple of days ago. She’s much better and happier too. Says her wound is healing. But she was having pneumonia and kept coughing. They changed her bandage while we were there. Saw her operation wound. Really deep and looks quite scary too. Took some photos so that she can keep track of the healing process and how well it is healing. Stayed there until 4, 5+. We would not have left if she hadn’t wanted to rest. Miss her alrd. Wish she could come back for CNY but guess that’s not possible. But earlier today, dad told us that mum’s pneumonia is healing well. It’s a really gr8 piece of news, although it seems like smt small. Hope she can go for the bone marrow transplant soon.

God bless.

love that bear <3