Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Went to see mum on Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon, & Tues. On Fri, she cried. She told my dad that the doctor said that if her fever doesnt go off, she will only haf 3 months left to live. She said that if anything happened to her, life had to go on. What she said made me cry. Had to go to the toilet. Didnt wanna upset her further. Later on, a doctor came in and said that what she had might not be pneumonia. Might be tuberculosis. Also dunno whether I shld be happy or sad. On the other days, she seemed happier. Maybe because she was glad that my sis and I were visiting her despite our heavy school workload, cuz usually we only see her once a wk. On Tues when we went there, they were changing her dressing. Only I went in, cuz my dad and my sis were pretty much freaked out by the sight of the wound. Although she claimed that it didnt hurt, can tell that she was in very much pain, just didnt wanna say. She was holding my hand and occasionally squeezed it, and she was gripping the handle at the side of her bed really tightly. She also closed her eyes when the nurses were cleaning her wound. Made me feel really sad and helpless. May God's grace fall upon her, bless her and continue to put his healing hands on her.
love that bear <3
